down south

so quit my job

mistake or not who knows

all i know is i got accepted into a great uni so i seriously couldn't care less right now

i do need money for smokes at the moment though... fuck

and i want new shoes

and a new blazer.

and ipod

i have applied for like 787836487 jobs today... and watched harry potter

was productive.

pretty bored

yer

i want someone

to msg me all night until i fall asleep

to sit in the sun with me

to hold my hand

to tell me that he likes me

i think that would be really nice...

i would really like that

and i think that its my turn to find someone

i have watched my two best friends find someone and full in love...

its a beautiful thing to watch

but sometimes... as much as i love to hang out with them all

i want someone to myself ...

starting a new
without you
:)

yggaw oinotna

I want to whisper into your ear, I want you to cook for me, I want to walk in the rain with you, I want to hold your hand, I want to you to hug me, I want to kiss you, I want to spend hours on the phone to you, I want to fall asleep with you I miss it… I want to laugh at you, I want you to brush the hair out of my face, I want to fall asleep in your arms, I want to be out in the city and let you know I’m thinking of you, I want to hang out with your friends and you hang out with mine... I want to be there when your upset and when your happy, I want to kiss in my car with you.. I want to study with you, I want to help you with tafe hw, I want to fall asleep watching tv with you, I want you to teach me how to play all your xbox and computer and ps games heh… I want to pull you in close, I want to drive you wherever, I want to be your woman, I want to have sex with you, I want to watch Billy Connelly with you ^^, I want to make noodles with you, I want to laugh with you, I want to play fight with you, I want to wrestle with you.. msg you till early I the morning… I want to be yours… I miss you

what to say

hmmm

i like you
obviously...
you already know this
we fight so much
and we annoy each other.
but i can't think of a time that i will be okay with
not speaking to you or seeing you.
i miss you like crazy
and i miss your moods because they made me laugh
and in the end we would still like each other
your really the opposite of everything i thought i wanted in a boy..
tattoos - you don't have
skate - you just can't :P
non moody - obviously your like a girl with PMS all the time

i just want to be yours. I hope again one day i can be...
i think i ...
you know.
I don't know...

You make me lost for words and i alway know what to say... I hate feeling not in control and at any moment i could just be broken pieces on the floor....

I don't even want to do anything else with anyone... just you... i want to fall asleep in your arms.

HAR

I'm glad i have stopped forming romantic attachments to any of the following: alcoholics, workoholics, sexaholics, commitment-phobics, peeping toms, megalomaniacs, emotional fuckwits, or perverts.

horraay for toraayyy :)

hello trentonsome

currently

finished : Watching Wedding Crashers
watching : bridget jones
talking to: trenton
fighting with: waggy
dinking: coffee
hot/cold : luke walm :P
wanting: secret
tomorrow: learning more wise things from college and yerrr
sleepy: meh

toray xx

title

I'm not quite sure what to say here.
I'm over all this thing... this thing that every girl craves and wants.
To be loved and cuddled and wanted.
not wanted like on all fours but wanted as in to be around.

To all you boys out there... i heard something today that i didn't really want to believe. "most of the time boys just want to get their dick wet"

well to all you boys that actualy DON'T GIVE A FUCK about girls fuck you i know so many girls just like me that have been messed up with you. I could count on all hands and feet a different girl that has told me "I really like this guy and i think he likes me too..." then they have sex ... and bye bye bye the guys fuck them off and move along to the next girl....

Why make the fucking effort i don't get it. To just fuck don't you want... a releationship someone to care about and that cares about you? If you are like the dreded guys I'm talking about .. think about it... your missing out. If you know the girl likes you why fuck her over in the first place... grow a spine and let her down softly and don't fuck her ....

It's so fucked these days
.... i know this is going to sound horrible ... but the boys that are lovely during the day are normaly.... to shy at night and the the boys that a wild at night couldnt give a fuck about the girls in the day....


Is there no half way? Is there no..... fucking boys out there that can be crazy in the sack and the most lovely person during the day....

I SPEAK ON BEHALF OF ALL WOMEN

sorry to the boys that are lovely! I hope you don't get fucked over by any of us girls because im not saying that, that also doesnt happen.

toray

i need some one

to cuddle with because i need someone

who likes kisses

and cuddles...

obviously someone well affectionate

please find me :)

jamie foxx

hmmm download

jamie foxx - brady bunch.... its smooth.

so i don't like the boy i did...
simple reasons.
too young for me... this be came clear soon after being with him for a while
hes moody as all hell... i can't keep up with him haha... aww well
15 year olds thrust them their bodies apon him ahaha ... and hes a bit rude to his family
... i don't like that

i'm still single and waiting for oneday to finaly find someone who makes me melt in their arms :)

yours forever
toray

Missed the last train home
birds pass by to tell me
that im not alone
well im pushing myself
to finish this part
i can handle a lot
but one thing i'm missing is in your eyes

have you seen this film
it reminds me of walking down the avenue
well im washing my hands of attachments,
yeah i will land on the ground
but one thing I’m missing is in your eyes

i like you boy

i'm sorry i always bag you

its because i like you so much

i cant always muster the right words to say to you

with out sounding ... silly

toray

oh god i can't

secret crush not so secret anymore

i like...love...like him
and he like....love...likes me

hahah
hes pretty amazing hey :)

i cant stop crying tho

sandra this BEAUTIFUL woman has been deeply crushed by this man... she gave her all
he moved for her why would he do the effort to just leave her... who does that seriously... she is so beautiful... and amazing. shes an amazing mother to kat and would have been an amazing wife to him but hes to stupid to understand not to go back to his whore of an ex wife...

i cant stop thinking about casey hardman and liz walker.. R.I.P i miss them so much and love them .... they were both so special to me...

and i just want to be in your arms if you read this
i miss your voice... always ... i just want to be with you already.... you make me so very happy... waggy :)

toray

a bit of a thing

"i've met somone who makes me feel seasick"
hehe (L)
so i still like my secret crush haha

im relaxed man and going with the flow anyone want to skrew with my flow .... just get out of the fucking flow haha....

peace world
toray

smile

i think i might have a bit of a crush on someone
a little bit hehe

hes younger than me
hes lovely
hes tallented
hes relaxed
and hes quite the gentelman

life is lovely :)

smiles

toray

original

Hello world, hello Australia, hello Victoria, hello melbourne, hello Warrandyte
when something makes you honestly at peace with yourself and you feel such happiness then why not share it with everyone else.... so thats what i'm going to do. I draw it makes me happy... 

wayne's world 2

mmmm
the perfect man
it's hard right? trying to figure out what you want

my perfect man... i figured i didnt know what i wanted so i would try and write it down and see how i go...

mmm
> taller than me
>brunet
>lovely eyes and smile
>long hair
>older than me
> mature
> funny / sarcastic
> lives near by
>we can bag each other but end up kissing :D
>doesnt mind if he makes a dick of himself (ill still laugh hehe)
>believes in himself
>can drive well
> is going somewhere
> doesnt wear running runners with jeans
> can... sing or draw or take photos or play drums or play guitar or something well.
>everyone likes him
>isnt a pretty boy
>is a doofus like me
>likes to snuggle
>likes to kiss alot
>likes to spoon
>likes to tickle
>likes my family and gets along with my siblings ( very important to me)
>doesnt want to change me
>isnt traditionally good looking
> has good style
>their family likes me
>is happy with himself
>likes good music...
>can make me giggle
>would be happy to just fall asleep with me on the couch
> likes mid 80s to early 90s rock music
>also 60 and 70s rock music
> doesnt care if i just walk around in a band tee
> chill and not uptight


prett much i want a releationship like a jack johnson song

im not looking for someone but im glad i kinda know what i would like now hehe.... never really put it down.

peace world
and once again i love you all
toray... xx

glasses

hmmmmm world im sleepy

been to dumplings

got coffee in china town

finishing off my seccond sketch book for the holidays

myspacing like a loser

lying on my bed

watching across the universe.

hmmmmm about to have a shower will be lovely.

actualy im happy just singing (badly) along to across the universe (by myself)

hahahaahhahahahahah

hahahahahhahahahah

ahahah

lame bitch i am :p

sillllly toray

anyway world cant type and sing

i'm outa here

peace

keep it cool

toray :)

spray adhesive

Well today was a very exciting day

ONE my family is coming home TRE HAPPY
miss my bedroom:( haha

TWO
the talented band she's themorning and thenight http://www.myspace.com/tonightweare are using my art work on their band tshirt :D they like my artwork ahhhh i'm so happy right now :D like when i dance in the rain in my school uniform and splash in the mud haha aww old days >>

ummm thats all right now hehe talk soon world

spread the love

toray

hello tonight

hello world

currently.

listening to : soul music

eating: ice

drinking: ice water

drawing: people (blind contour)

boys: noooope well not really

TONIGHT IS DARIOS PARTY

im a bit excited for him hahah

me + verity + tasha

car ride there will be fun

ummmmmmmmmm

i miss my family a bit they are on holiday :(

but back on MONDAY

yay

and i will be getting a new laptop soon heh bit happy

ummm and also NEXT WEEK i have the NDS CAMP not really organised by NDS haha....

we will do everthing you shouldnt and it will be fun

anyway im off this is a quick on.

speak soon bloggers.

love, toray

dick dick dick

this is just a hello to my lover Richard ( dick) who i am seeing tonight haha


i slept alot today and when i say alot i mean A FUCK LOAD

last night was the best full stop :P \
i had to leave early for becca because she wasnt doing to well but who the fuck said the night finished there heyyyyyyyy ;)

hello English gentleman


hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha HA


so right now im just sitting at tashas while she is out at the movies with damai

so im just a lame bitch :P haha not really coz i get to see my DARLING DICK :D hehehe


love you dick
love you people

haha, toray



OKAY WAIT
NOW ME AND TOM ARE GOING OUT YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY BUT WHERE????? who knows BBYE

POGO yerrrrrr sir

- .Thomas le moke, Le'Calibra? Last pogo EVER this Thurs =[ Tom's list for $$ entry says:
I could not sleep last night

- .Thomas le moke, Le'Calibra? Last pogo EVER this Thurs =[ Tom's list for $$ entry says:
Due to extreme exciteness

TORAY. lastpogotonightlastpogotonightlastpogotonight says:
heheheh eYAAAAAAAAAAAAY

- .Thomas le moke, Le'Calibra? Last pogo EVER this Thurs =[ Tom's list for $$ entry says:
YAY

- .Thomas le moke, Le'Calibra? Last pogo EVER this Thurs =[ Tom's list for $$ entry says:
Alcohol poising

TORAY. lastpogotonightlastpogotonightlastpogotonight says:
YES!

- .Thomas le moke, Le'Calibra? Last pogo EVER this Thurs =[ Tom's list for $$ entry says:
WOO

TORAY. lastpogotonightlastpogotonightlastpogotonight says:
what time do you want us over






WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
somebody eg.me
IS SWELLLLLLLLL

no more sadness for toray
bye bye sadness
tata *waves*


haha
today i went shopping
got some sweet shit from savers
and went to greensy for a bit of a splerge

and now i just had a shower and getting ready for the last POGO ever.
this is clearly going to be very sad
so we must all get...
our dance on
our drink on
our smoke on
our cute on
our kiss on
and whatever else we can get on FUCK IT we will!


plus i get to see all my old school friends
tre exciting

ehhhhhh anywho must be off i have wet hair and want to go get ready

tata photos will be up shortly

LOVE EVERYONE IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD
peace
toray

right?

I'm lame. Three blogs in one night. Fucking great.



I think i should be wise about he whole liking someone



I should just be mature about it.



I can't do it to myself again, if you did read my first blog i have had one and only one... love before, and i have had a tone of crushes on people but i always keep it safe.... because ill be honist with you i got .. well ill explain it like this



my heart was thrown in acid ..... while..... lady Ga Ga sung in the background. all very shit things.


mmmm so since then i have been a bit scared to like someone.
im scared now of what im doing.


fuck it.
it was lovely
hes lovely
hanging with him when we did was lovely


but i just cant
its sad right?







yer it is.

ahh

Sorry for the spelling mistakes below was in a rush…

Also watching Russell Brand DVD heh

Toray. x

swelll..... late night bloging

well this isn’t the happiest of blogs....

i like a boy... well starting to.... i guess.

ill list the things that are just horrid about the entire thing.

1. i like talking to him and i think hes just sick of talking to me. its not my fault... i find him so funny and lovely. but now i just feel like shit because we hardly talk,.... when i msg him i regret it later because i feel like a doofus.

2. 3984902384903849823other839428394woman84398274834

3. i have only known him a little why so i just sound like an idiot

4. i want to see him a little bit coz i just want to get to know him better ..

5. i sound stupid... silly, silly, toray.





.... i like his kisses ^^


I’m lame
i hope he never reads this


i just pray that he doesn’t get sick of me because I’m not normally like this I’m actually quite normal...

oh its so frustrating im s fucking lame lame lame lame lame.... fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck me

i think i should just forget about it.
he does love someone....

ill shut up now.

oh wait one thing

i said something horrible he said something personal on his behalf and i said stupidly "oh well i wont try then"

i would like to try but I’m so scared of failing badly...







and I’m like an old woman compared to him haha.









ill just make up my mind and just not, I’m a bit scared .



ONTO SOMTHING NEW

shout out to my family

mother i love you clearly your just the best :)

daddy you think you up to date with the music..... haha eg. sneaky sound system :P love youu

lizzzay you rock my world little sister you have bf .... haha u bitch im just the single older sister. Your one of my best friend and you always make me smile... love you lilly lolly little legs.

RICHARD best mate, you kick my ass 24/7 and make me chuckle all the time. ur a white will smith u sexy fuck love you bro


hahaha i think this is enough emotion for one blog
your all very special

peace
toray.

p.s RUSSEL BRAND DOO ME

art work

Just uploading a few pieces :) enjoy. i sure did... drawing them

now some are blind contour.... you can probably tell :) haha

anywho stay cool kidos 

talk soon :) 

lots of love from toray :) 

FIrstly

First blog... tad exciting ey. 

Well ill start off just saying... Hey there I'm Victoria (toray) currently 18 almost 19 in less than a month ( 19 official worst age ever) ummm i have a bunch of close friends between the ages of 16 and 40... and might i tell you know 40 year olds can party just as hardcore as 18 year olds... no shit... kid you not... by the way this is me :) >>

I did have blonde hair and go to an all girls school... haha the second i finished i died my hair dark brown and pierced my noes.. mum thinks im becoming some witch... or rebel or something... but i'm not haha just going with how i feel. 

I have a best friend Tash... shes pretty amazing we are gunna grow old together haha... she always makes me laugh  .... shes the hot little woman in the photo with the blond hair i'm clearly the "witch" on the side ahah. 

i love all music except like country western... hellll no. hellllllll no. Apart from that i like to dance to anything i can even though .... i'm not the best dance in the world... but helll i do GET MY FUNK ON. 

I talk like there is no tomorrow so hey HAVE FUN READING THIS. I'm loud and sarcastic and i love to playfully bag people but i never hurt feelings its a bit of fun :)

Lets talk about love

i love it

and hate it

its always complicated derrrrrrr..

I havent been inlove since i looked like... ummmmmm THIS > 

awwwww cutie (not.) i was what 16 maybe.... the kid knows i was inlove with him for ages and he for some of it loved me back... but i messed up BADLY being the horny 16 year old i was i wanted to explore the opposite sex for a bit haha... we are good friends now me and him. 

BUT yes since then not really loved anyone ... liked people ... lusted people... but no love. I think true love is simple you love someone and they love you in return that and only that is love... you cannot love someone when they do not love you back ... its hard to explain... but ... its more like... u like them ALOT. 

I'm into art ... want to go in to graphic design... i won't go on about this. Just letting you kids know out there. 

I have a sweet job... i work in the beautiful city of Melbourne as a wait for it..... telemarketer... bummer hey BUT the upside is its for charities... woo snaps for me... 

did not just say "snaps for me" but whaaaaatevvvver

 man. haha anyway i'm off i have Passiona to drink and forgetting sarah marshal to watch.... (seen it like 156839703.9 times ) GOTTA LOVE IT 

P.s AWESOME PHOTO FROM MA's HOUSE TODAY 

ME DICK AND ZAC loveeee them >>>

keep on keep'n on 

TORAY