okay

so i'm having people over on thursday.

my new guy I'm with... will be hanging out with.. my ex bf.

GROOVY because i love being put in awkward 'i know you have slept with her' lets now be bestfriends because we have that in common moments.

Now my ex will playfully bag me in front of him and the new guy wont know to laugh or join in ... but under the pressure of the male ego will most likely join in. Then there will be high fives and 'dude add me on facebook - i can't believe we know so many of the same people'

and while.. the smoke, drink and laugh outside i will... most likely sit where i am at the moment in my bedroom and sook ahah .

BUT REALLY. I am looking forward to them meeting . They would have anyway. its just... you know... awkward

whatever though .... ill get my drink on and make a fool of myself under the extreme pressure ahahah :P

down south

so quit my job

mistake or not who knows

all i know is i got accepted into a great uni so i seriously couldn't care less right now

i do need money for smokes at the moment though... fuck

and i want new shoes

and a new blazer.

and ipod

i have applied for like 787836487 jobs today... and watched harry potter

was productive.

pretty bored

yer

i want someone

to msg me all night until i fall asleep

to sit in the sun with me

to hold my hand

to tell me that he likes me

i think that would be really nice...

i would really like that

and i think that its my turn to find someone

i have watched my two best friends find someone and full in love...

its a beautiful thing to watch

but sometimes... as much as i love to hang out with them all

i want someone to myself ...

starting a new
without you
:)

yggaw oinotna

I want to whisper into your ear, I want you to cook for me, I want to walk in the rain with you, I want to hold your hand, I want to you to hug me, I want to kiss you, I want to spend hours on the phone to you, I want to fall asleep with you I miss it… I want to laugh at you, I want you to brush the hair out of my face, I want to fall asleep in your arms, I want to be out in the city and let you know I’m thinking of you, I want to hang out with your friends and you hang out with mine... I want to be there when your upset and when your happy, I want to kiss in my car with you.. I want to study with you, I want to help you with tafe hw, I want to fall asleep watching tv with you, I want you to teach me how to play all your xbox and computer and ps games heh… I want to pull you in close, I want to drive you wherever, I want to be your woman, I want to have sex with you, I want to watch Billy Connelly with you ^^, I want to make noodles with you, I want to laugh with you, I want to play fight with you, I want to wrestle with you.. msg you till early I the morning… I want to be yours… I miss you

what to say

hmmm

i like you
obviously...
you already know this
we fight so much
and we annoy each other.
but i can't think of a time that i will be okay with
not speaking to you or seeing you.
i miss you like crazy
and i miss your moods because they made me laugh
and in the end we would still like each other
your really the opposite of everything i thought i wanted in a boy..
tattoos - you don't have
skate - you just can't :P
non moody - obviously your like a girl with PMS all the time

i just want to be yours. I hope again one day i can be...
i think i ...
you know.
I don't know...

You make me lost for words and i alway know what to say... I hate feeling not in control and at any moment i could just be broken pieces on the floor....

I don't even want to do anything else with anyone... just you... i want to fall asleep in your arms.